yestrday i never go to visit my da gu.. coz i am plain too lazy..
haiz... no choice.. pigs are liydat de... well.. and oso.. frankly speaking i dun feel like going also.. for what i go.. go oso sit dwn there do nth.. plus i am not close to them one lo.. maybe coz i biased la... i had never like my father's side relatives... coz they are so fake lo.. to me.. they are jux another bunch of fake ppl.. they can put on a mask and talk to u de lo... what they say might means another reason.. who knows when will they backstab u lo... and all those ill treatings i see during my childhood time.. hw they treat my mum... i get so sian oso.. whenever gt gathering, my mum will be veri tired... though my mum does help out in housework.. but sometimes they jux treat her like a maid.. i dun like.. u ppl have maid le.. still ask my mum do tis do that.. everytime go gathering.. my family sure to be the first to reach and last to go.. and my mum will be going hme sweatin all over and feeling so tired.. i dun like.. she is my mum leh.. not u people's maid.. haiz.. suan le...
so ystrday rot whole day at hme lo.. haiz.. why am i nt at all gan jiong fer my exams huh?!! i realli duno.. maybe i lost motivation le ba... suan le..
today basically nth much.. juz went to church den go JP makan.. den back hme..
watched tv the whole evening.. total slacker.. how to survive thru poly sia!!... whatever it is.. i still must do my best to get a diploma.. and get my life out of schools!!! but hor.. it is juz a piece of paper.. that piece of paper realli.. haiz...big shot lo... make me suffer.. ok enuf crapping...
well..juz nw while surfin net... suddenly feel that something is crawling on my leg... den i thought is what lo.. till i get a look @ it... guess what... it is a lizard la!!! wah lauz... scare me to death.. i quickly sweep it away and scream out loud.. haha!! okok.. i am timid la... whatever....
now is 19th September...meaning 2mths le... so long le.. time realli past veri fast.. but the feeling still stings leh...
having needed to act as if nth happen before.. possible meh... to me.. as for now.. i still find it a bit difficult leh.. haiz.. 2mths have past.. seen him fer 2times during this 2mths.. but nv talk at all.. felt so awkard... even smses or chatting in msn i also feel veri strange... haiz.. though i always act as if i am ok le.. but deep dwn inside i dun think i am ba... things are nt like last time... have problems... the first few people i go too, he sure to be 1 of them.. but nw.. never le... haha!.. what talkin me.. suan le.. nth le...jux crapping.. forget it...
tml... going to stay at home and mug le la... if not i sure get SPCO long service award.. i dunwan... i even have thought of leaving after i step down.. and be those MIA ppl.. come back when gt performance kind... haiz... dun think can ba...
ok.. think nth much for me to blog le...
bye bloggie.. i love u k.. haha~
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